cf_pcos


finally, there's a community for PCOS that isn't all about fertility and babymaking. it just got started over from cf_hardcore and no i don't give a *fuck* what kind of snark you have about that comm. i love it and it keeps me sane.

i have sympathy for people who have PCOS and want babies. i really do. but i wish they would acknowledge that everyone in the fucking world wants to help them out and that all the information on PCOS that's out there is for their benefit. i wish TTC people who take over every single goddamn site would recognize that their choices are just as fucking selfish as being CF and that getting pregnant is big deal for them not for the rest of the goddamn world. i wish that people TTC would put their shit into perspective because i don't think money for you to pop out a sprog is more important than health care money for people who need cancer treatments.

i get it, you want a baby. but we don't all get what we fucking want in life and that doesn't mean that your need to have a baby because you want it overrides everything else. TTC people act like the world should revolve around their baby rabies and that's bullshit.

when the cf need health info on how to keep menstrual cycles regular or deal with other non-fertility stuff there's nothing but a bunch of fertility sites and guides on getting knocked up. nothing about how to deal with weight loss woes or the insulin resistance that might come with pcos if you've got that double whammy or what birth controls might be better/worse for you because of your condition.

its not fucking fair and it makes me furious sometimes because it feels like a big message from society that my health only matters when it affects whether i can have and carry babies not whether i feel good and can do things i want to do.

I'M NOT A FUCKING INCUBATOR.

I don't know if any of the rest of you are doing NaNoWriMo (I am), but when I go to their front page, I'm assault by the image of a Moo and her newborn sprog on the front page.

Apparently, the Nano folks think that if you write a novel while you're pregnant and then have a baby and manage to finish that you're some kind of superhero.

So people who work two jobs or have disabilities don't deserve any credit or recognition, but if you drop a sprog, suddenly writing 50,000 words is an amazing feat that deserves an article on the front page?

I'm so tired of people acting like popping a sprog is this huge miracle and everyone should fawn over you if you have one. Fine, you did something that creatures since the beginning of time have been doing. Good for you, your plumbing works. It doesn't make every single thing you do after you crotch-drop a fucking Olympic level achievement.

Oh, and speaking of writing and Moo-dom, was anyone else just beyond pissed at Breaking Dawn? I won't spoil folks, but it's the worst book ever and I'm done with the entire series and I'm done with Stephanie Meyer.

Just once I'd like to read a book or see a movie where a woman gets pregnant on accident and actually does the smart thing and has the abortion. I'm so tired of it being seen as "heroic" to have a baby. No, it's not. Sometimes the heroic thing is to know that the kid just shouldn't get born, am I right?

some idiots tried to leave spam comments in an older entry. if i thought that they'd see it, i would have told them to at least learn fucking english before spamming me.

i wish i could find people like that and scream at them and kick them in the nads.

Dear Moo,

When an elderly gentleman with a cane and pronounced arthritis boards a crowded bus, and is obviously having trouble standing, the correct response is not to take up the last remaining seat for your completely healthy child, who doesn't seem to want to sit in one place anyway.

The correct response is to move your kid out of the seat, let the poor guy sit, and never ever take a stroller that big onto public transportation again.

You didn't do that, and one of the other elderly passengers who was more able to stand gave up her seat. God knows if I'd had a seat, it would have been his. But I was too busy getting poked in the leg by your enormous stroller as I was standing.

I think you're a horrible human being. I hope your ovaries shrivel so your callous bitch genes can't pass any further into the gene pool.

No Love Ever,
Me


Also, the next time some pair of breeders wants to try knocking me down the stairs so they can move their giant stroller down it during rush hour when everyone is trying to go upwards and I have absolutely no where to go, I am going to start screaming loudly until you decide to do the smart thing. Seriously. I'm going to lose my shit and just start going into hysterics. I will do my best to freak you the fuck out, because you deserve it.

I understand that for whatever reason, you feel the need to transport your crotchnugget via public transportation. I understand it probably needs it's own container. God knows, I want a barrier between it and me at all times. Especially if it decides to spew.

But since said container is the size of a space shuttle, maybe you could do the sensible thing and wait five fucking extra minutes until the crowd has cleared and stairs are more navigable.

Of course, I don't expect you to do this because you're stupid, and I imagine that your entire existence revolves around this little poop factory and you have placenta brains which are soft and squishy and make you about as good at logic and forethought as a brain damaged baboon.

Still, it would be nice.

I don't know if any of you have ever read Blood and Iron by Elizabeth Bear but it is so so so so so awesome. I love this book so much it has everything in it. It has fairies and dragons and a very sarcastic water horse and a bunch of people from hell and a club of people who want to get rid of all that with iron. I won't spoil it for you.

So I made a fanmix. First time I made one of these for a book.

ETA: Be polite and comment when taking so I can know when to put up a new link and someone let me know when the downloads run out. I know that yousendit.com can be a pain.

ETA 2: One of the tracks is missing from the .zip. It's linked individually. Thanks for letting me know.


( 3 Warnings & 1000 Broken Ballads: A Blood and Iron Fanmix )

I am testing the livejournal client I just downloaded

apparently I won a stargate fan award for "unbearable luminosity".

huh. didn't realize people liked it that much.

am perplexed but grateful. also inspired to finish up "perfect storms" which is 99% complete anyway.

so i decided to entitle my universe "standard candles". the term "standard candle" is used in astronomy to denote a star who's brightness is used as a standard to measure the brightness of other stars. i think this is appropriate given what the characters in my universe are going to do.

also, the cover is a spoiler for stories #4 and #5. because i will be adding atlantis characters. so if you don't want to know which ones, don't look.


( pretty artwork for my universe done by myself )